Sayangg , andainya one day..

My dear Mr A , kalau awak dah jumpa sesorang yang boleh mengembirakan setiap hari awak , menceriakan setiap pagi awak ,menemani awak sebelum awak tidur setiap malam . Saya relakan awak lepas tangan saya untuk mencapai tangan gadis pilihan hati awak sendiri . Saya takkan pernah paksa awak untuk terus bersama saya or lebih tepat lagi , untuk TERUS MENCINTAI SAYA . Ye sayangg , itu hak awak . Bukan hak saya . Saya bukan mahu menuduh awak curang pada saya sekarang . Cuma saya mahu pesan pada awak awal awal . If oneday awak dah jumpa gadis yang lebih baik daripada saya . Please , ceritakan pada saya . Jujur pada saya . Terus terang pada saya . Jangan pernah mencurangi saya dari belakang . Sila berkata pada saya yang awak sukaa akan orang lain . Saya takkan marah awak.. Never . Saya bukan nak jadi busy body or whatever shit . Cuma , saya tanak hati saya dilukai oleh orang yang sangat sayaa cintai .Please sayang , kalau awak baca ni . Awak mesti faham kan maksud saya ? Saya merayu , jangan curang . Dan saya merayu , if dah jumpa yang lain , tolong bagitahu . Sebab saya dengan serta merta , akan pergi dari hidup awak dan akan cuba melupakan diri awak . Awak tahu kan saya mampu buat macam tu . I LOVE YOU MR A :')

Impossible Dreams .

Not all that we dream could be come true . Even we very needed those things that we dream , better we should forget about it . Because when you really hope that thing will be happen to yourself , you will be a difficult person to accept the situation when what you dream never come true . That's why I became a girl who was naive and didn't expect anything in my relationship with him . My heart was hurt by someone I loved before , and I don't want that thing happen again in my life .

Dear my lovely blog . Sometimes , not all things we can accept with an open heart . Like the thought of the old story . When I remembered the old memories , honestly I have to say . My heart is too painful and miserable. All kinds of ways I try to forget about it , but could not . Until I could make decisions that may lead to my relationship with him is broken . I am an idiot because difficult to forget such things matter . I became like this because I don't want such things to happen again in my life . Sincerely by Nur Lyana Mustapa

Ramadhan 2012 (Y)

Dear My Lovely Blog , saya nak mention kat sini that bulan puasa tak lama lagi . So , saya jadi serba salah and dalam dilema actually . Saya rasa nak berhenti sebelum bulan puasa kat T.G.I Fridays . Saya dah penat kerja dalam restaurant . But at the same time , saya rasa bersalah nak berhenti because kitaorang tak cukup staff . Then , bila dengar pulak Mr Haikal Santana a.k.a my General Manager says yang time bulan puasa memang busy gilaa + penat gilaa . Bila dengar bos cerita macam tu , i was like.. huh ? Okayy , lagi saya nak berhenti cepat . But kesian kat diorang sebab tak cukup staff nak run the store . Seriously , i was blank when thinking about that . Memang lah saya tanak kerja sana forever and ever , but sementara nak tunggu second intake for studies and PLKN , better saya kerja right ? Takkan nak tidur macam burung hantu jee kat rumah . Nak jadi apa ? By the way , before me ended this topic , doakan saya Ramadhan tahun ni dapat saya tempuhi dengan penuh kesabaran dan keimanan , Aminn . InsyaAllah :')

Goodbye .

Assalammualaikum / Peace be upon with you . Today I would like to say , 'sayonara' to SHIMA and HALIFF . Yeahh , diorang berdua akan pergi meninggalkan saya hujung bulan Jun ini untuk sambung belajar . Means , tiada lagi rakan yang sebaya dengan saya or maksud yang lebih tepat lagi . Tiada lagi sahabat yang sentiasa bersama saya disaat susah senang . Tiada lagi yang akan bergossip dengan saya , tiada lagi yang akan mengambil gambar bersama saya . Tiada lagi tempat saya menunjukkan aksi aksi ganas . Tiada lagi gelak tawa dari mereka.. Ohh God , kenapa cepat sangat masa berlalu :'(


Sincerely by ,

 Nur Lyana Mustapa

The worst day ever !

Dear my lovely blog , do you know what happened yesterday at 25th June 2012 ? Yeahh , I was fighting with someone . A man that I love . Okayy , maybe my mistakes to make him jealous but swear to God I didn't mean to make him such like that . Because of it , he revenge by making me jealous and resentful 10 times ! Serious sh*t , i lost emotional control and without thinking , I send a message to him and say that my relationship with him has ended .Soon after just message was sent , he called me over and over again . But I didn't answer the call . Instead I turn off my phone so that he could not find me again . Not enough with that , I remove him from the the list of my friends on Facebook . But guess what ? he came up to me and begged me not to leave him . He regrets and promised not to do so again . Because I still love him , I'm willing to accept him back and give him the opportunity to continue with me again . 




Sincerely ,
 Nur Lyana Mustapa <3

If one day we separated, don't you come back to me. Because at that time, I had already forgotten about you, our memories of joy and sorrow we are together, and all our experience together. I don't want to forget you, but I don't want to suffer when thinking of you. I sincerely say that I'm very love you more than everything Mr. A. Please remember this message :')

Broken heart

Hye , long time saya tak update my blog . Yeahh , blog rahsiaa.. haha . btw saya sihat sihat je . But something wrong missing in my heart .. yeahh , HIM . Thanks for doing me like that . Awak tak hargai apa yang saya dah buat kat awak . Fine , saya tak kesah . sebab apa ? Sebab sayang :')

My Only Gemuk !

Haha . Ni lah kerja kitaorang bila bosan . Snap pakai webcam je . Hahaha xD

si gemuk saya :)

 Pose Pose Pose . .

 Hee . Suka sangat picture ni <3

 Tak suka bunga rose , buat buat suka je . Haha

ILY GEMUK ! <3

N E W Y E A R 2 0 1 2 ! !

First of all , tahun ni aku nak jadi yang terbaek dari diri aku sebelum ni . Aku tanak jadi aku yang dulu . Aku nak tuka diri aku . tapi means , bukan lah aku nak jadi hipokrit kan ? Just nak orang yang kenal aku sebelum ni jadi lebih suka and suka diri aku yang sekarang ni :)

p/s:iwillproveit!